Hospital, Hard Times, Happy Thanksgiving

Well another hospitalization over. This was the B cycle and it was easy last time. He went in on Friday and they infuse the chemo over 2 days. Saturday he did great but Sunday he woke up sick. He started throwing up even before he tried to eat. They gave him meds and he slept. He continued to be sick every time he woke up and 2 hours later the doctor came in for rounds. He had about 6 fellows with him and they stood around the bed. The doctor said everything looked good and Josh could go home in a couple of hours. Gordon tried to explain about him being sick and the doctor didn't seem concerned. Then a fellow bumped the bed and woke up Josh. He proceeded to start up again. The problem is it is pretty violent and he can't stop till he falls asleep again. Needless to say the doctor was shocked and very upset. He said of course he could not go home till they got it under control and told the fellows they would have to come up with an immediate plan for new meds and a way to stop it. Well they put another anti nausea on board while he slept. He was more stable when he woke up but now had diarrea too. The men from our church came and gave Josh and Gordon the sacrament and a blessing and Joshua turned a corner. He was able to come home last night late and is sleeping in this morning. If he can wake up and take his anti nausea and keep down some breakfast we will be doing great.

Every cycle is getting harder on Joshua. Every time I think this will be the last time I let them do this to him. Then I think I have to keep going and do what they tell us to do. It is very hard, to see him suffer, and know that we cause it with these terrible drugs. When we picked up Joshua last night we had the children in the car in their jammies and Rachel said "did the doctors give you the bad medicine again Josh?" Even she knows on some level what is happening. But we have to have faith that this is the right thing to do and it will make a difference for Joshua. For now I am just happy to have him home. I look in on him sleeping in his bed and want him to stay there forever. I guess that I am just silly.....

Well, I have to go. Our house is its usual mess and Gordon's Mom and Dad are coming tomorrow for Thanksgiving. We have a lot of shopping to do and even more cleaning. This year we have lots to be thankful for. First, we are still together as a family. Second, Gordon's Mom and Dad will be here. And last but definately NOT least -----Gordon has got a new job! He starts the 1st of December and it is a great position. I am very proud of him, he has worked hard for this opportunity and he is ready for it. I hope you have a great Thanksgiving, and I pray you have a long list of things to be thankful for. We are thankful for you and the blessing your prayers bring. Happy Thanksgiving.