Thursday, August 28, 2008

Hospitals, Hopes, and Brewhahas

Well there is lots to say tonight. First, the important things. Joshua had his first hospital stay in Texas and it was rough. He had a reaction to the chemo and was very ill yesterday. I was very worried and spent the morning wondering why we came here. I now know... They were wonderful at MD Anderson! Everybody stepped up to the plate and worked hard to help Josh. The staff at the hospital showed so much concern and worked with all their skill to get the problem under control. I am so happy to say now that after an extra day at the hospital he is home and doing well. We will watch him closely and let you know about his counts next Tuesday when we go in for outpatient chemo. As we try to settle into our new home (yes we finally did close) and schools (Dorothy has already missed a day of school due to the hospital stay) and get used to the bugs(there are too many of them - we have moved in but the ants are unwilling to move out) I feel like we may make a start here ( if Gustov doesn't hit).

Now on to some business that I am very sad about. My last post generated more comments than any other single post. Sadly there were some that I would rather have not had. I am hoping that my comments tonight can be the end of this and clear up some misunderstandings. First, I love Nebraska. I have had the hardest time leaving. It was harder than any other place I have moved from. We will be forever greatful for the support and care we recieved there. In our hardest time many people stepped up and made a diffence in our lives. That said, we felt strongly we had to move for Joshua. There were aspects of his care that were not working and so we are now in Texas. NOW, the purpose of this blog is to let everyone know what is happening with Joshua and our family. It is also a place for me to share my feelings, that means that sometimes I will say what I am thinking or ramble (see disclaimer at top of blog) NOTHING I say is meant to hurt or offend anyone. A perfect example of that is the comment made in the last post about Nebraska. I was reminding myself why we had to move, because I was struggling at that moment with being in Texas. I am sorry if it offended anyone and I appreciate those who rose to my support when they thought I had been yelled at.

With that said, I ask that we keep the focus on Joshua. I also ask that you give me a little leeway as I pore out my heart. Sometimes I don't say the right thing but it is because I am so heartbroken. Our lives keep changing and I frankly can not keep up. I am greatful for your comments and wait eagerly for them. We love you all and I hope you know how important you are to us.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ruth, you are a great Woman, a great wife, and an AMAZING Mother! God has placed your children in your tender loving care, and I know He is so pleased with ALL you and Gordon have done to bless their lives. God has promised to "Lead Me, Guide Me, and Walk Beside Me" ESPECIALLY when making tough decisions and choices that will bless your family's life. Being LEAD and GUIDED to live in Texas is not something you should have to "explain" to ANYONE! God blessed with loving friends in Nebraska and will now continue to bless you in Texas. You are where you are supposed to be for your family and Josh, and that is ALL that matters.

I love you!
Nancy

cyndi said...

Hi Ruth,
I certainly couldn't say it any better than Nancy did. This is your safe haven to share, vent, look for support or use as you wish. I am grateful for the time you shared your family with us here in Omaha and wish I wouldn't have squandered the opportunity to be a bigger part of your lives. You are a mother who is doing her best to comfort and care for her family under the most trying of circustances. You do it with such grace, courage and humor that you bless all of us by your example. Please call or email anytime that you need a friendly ear.
Love, Cyndi

Anonymous said...

Ruthie, You are fabulous and I wouldn’t want you any different than you are! Anonymous needs to reevaluate and get on with their own life. Like my sister says, “build a bridge and get over it”. The purpose of your blog is to keep us all informed with accurate information and yes “vent”. Maybe Anonymous should walk a day in your shoes and understand the difficulties and struggles you face on a daily basis. Remember your friends and family are with you and more importantly – God is with you! Blessings to all of you. Love ya – Your bud Donna in MD

Lanae said...

So glad to hear that Josh is home. We will add the bugs to our prayers, I can't even imangine living somewhere where they are more than AZ! Hope you find the same wonderful support group in your new home. It is so nice to see all the comments from your wonderful friends that surrond you when we can't be there. It is such a testament to what a wonderful boy Josh is and how many people love your family.
Have a great weekend.
Love you
Lanae

Anonymous said...

I was good talking to you today! You will have to write more in your blog since that is how I am going to have to keep up with you now. I guess our bowling careers are over since you guys moved, they closed the lanes, and we are to cheap to bowl somewhere else. Have a nice Labor Day weekend settling into your house. Don’t forget we need lots of pics. Love, Ape