Catch Us If You Can

Ok, the last comment on the blog was about something I haven't posted yet! Things are wacky and I need to catch up. Lets see,,,,,,Oh yea, We sold our house in Nebraska. 4 days on the market and 2 showings. It is a miracle and we can't wait to be together again. The trick to the sale is that we have to be out by next weekend. SO off we go and on to Texas. Before you ask, we do not have a home there yet and are still looking. We will keep you posted as it unfolds. Now, on to more important matters, Josh. He is struggling right now. He is well but for some reason he just can't keep his numbers up. His count is 340 - even with the shots we have started. I give him a shot in his thigh every evening to help his body produce white blood cells but so far it is not good. His count was 1350 when we started the shots so the fact that it fell is disappointing. Also we have a new problem. His Hemocrit (I have no idea if that is spelled right) has dropped to 8. That is very dangerous and so yesterday they gave him a pint of blood. The doctors say this is fairly normal but the truth is it scared me to death. It was frightening to see him hooked up to the blood. Normally when he is on an IV I help if it beeps but I didn't even want to touch it. (eventually I did) I think that most days I fool myself into thinking he is ok and not that sick but seeing him like that means I can't avoid the truth. Also he is very weak and tired at home and I feel bad for him. We tried to go swimming but he could not make it across the pool to earn a wristband to get to go down the slide and was very sad about it. Also he is not able to gain any weight and is so thin he can't maintain his body temp so he was cold in the water and we had to leave. (please do not give suggestions for how to help him eat - we are already doing everything we can) I just do not know if he will make it to school this fall. If he doesn't it will be a blow to him. Also, I feel so bad for the other kids. Our world is small now, we used to go out and do things but now we just sit at home. I felt so bad telling them to get out of the pool 15 minutes after we got in so we could take him home. They are very good to him and never make him feel bad but that doesn't mean it is easy for them. We used to go on walks alot but that doesn't happen either. We are going back to the doctor on Monday to check his counts again. Please pray they are up, the doctors think they might be and they have to be or I don't know how we are going to travel. I wish I could be excited about this move but everything worries me now and I am just praying we get there in one piece.
Before I go I should list the things I am glad about so here it goes:

1. We are all healthy (you know what I mean)

2. Our house sold here in Nebraska

3. We will be together soon.

4. Josh did get to go to camp and enjoyed it.

5. Miriam and Teddy went to day camp for a week each.

6. Rachel is potty trained (not at night)

7. My vegetable garden is over grown with vegetables.

8. Our friends always seem to know when we need them (ok that isn't so great - we are leaving them)

9. Gordon and I have been bowling this summer and our team is in 2nd place.

10. Texas will be better for Joshua. ( and hopefully good for the rest of us!)


As Always, you are in our prayers. Pray for good counts and a safe journey................Thank you all.